I hv been really dwn tis wk. couldnt even go to supermarket easily today the idea of facing ppl nightmare when you hate yrslf.tonight I drew away frm facebook in order to create space so I could disappear for good. not bullshitting anyone when u live with borderline personality disorder the struggle is just sometimes too hard. It plainly sux up down round the bend and back again.im strong but christ. Not to mention not being able to control impulses sux mine has been catalogue shopping of late
Not good. Especially when u r on a benefit try telling bpd mind that...oh my.....oh well pressure too frm folks get a j o b . Easy to say not to do especially keeping the job when u hv bpd.
Anyway cant promise I will stick around bloggers.
Mike king was bak on nutters club radiolive for monthly dose. Carole was guest on maori tv nutters club. She lost her son to suicide. That was sad.
Saw family on skype tonight felt so disconnected. Werid. I feel not much for them now after was excommunicated frm church and family and friends. After yr disconnected how do u build relatnships that shattered do u even want to.? Big question marks....can u truly fix a shattered self.
is it worth it?
Tash
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